Documenting April

It was not my intent to stop blogging for the entire month of April. I’ve been mentally writing an Easter post since Good Friday, but made no success at actually putting those thoughts down. If you could see the calendar in my kitchen, and stopped by any time outside school hours, you’d quickly understand why blogging, along with many other items have fallen by the wayside.

I’d mentioned in my last post that becoming foster parents had forced us into a different type of survival mode. I can say that, now that we’re a month post placement, things have improved, but things are still challenging and caring for Todd remains more time consuming than I think either Tony or I anticipated.

For me personally, I feel like where I was the year before I put Fulton and Teddy in school. I’m just overwhelmed all the time. It means that after almost a year of maintaining an exercise routine (weight lifting 3 x a week + 30 min. walks 2-3x a week) I have temporarily had to give up leaving the house extra early to work out. I’ve done a couple walks, but the risk of waking Todd up early, plus just more general exhaustion, means I’m getting up at the same time as everyone else. I’m trying to go easy on myself; it’s only temporary. I really miss working out and I know that as soon as I can get back to it, I will, but I keep feeling like I’m losing all the progress I’ve made over the last 11 months. It’s a little discouraging. I also liked being able to shower at the gym and come home ready to go for the day. Now, I’m back to wearing my old 2013 homeschooling mom uniform of PJs and a bathrobe.

We’re also eating a lot more convenience food and take out to simplify meal prep and dinner time, after an otherwise pretty healthy early Lent. I’d also got into the habit of meal prepping some healthy lunches for myself, but that’s also fallen by the wayside. I’ve tried to stick to some of healthy food goals I instituted last year for the family, but I just can’t make as much from scratch right now. I know this is only a temporary season we’re in, but I guess it makes me see how much I was accomplishing pre-placement, and how little wiggle room we really did have.

I’m still trying to fit so much into the hours when Todd is at school that it’s impossible to get everything done. And because I’m “on” so much when he’s home, I’ve slipped into the bad habit of staying up late watching YouTube or reading just so I can have some quiet time when no one needs me. Tony and I also have been spending many nights talking and decompressing. It’s nice to spend time together and unwind, but I ultimately stay up later than I used to. Thankfully I’m not dealing with insomnia the way I was in the first couple weeks, but man, my dreams are all over the place right now.

We’ve had some additional stress with our tenants (we’ve been renting out our old house since we moved three years ago), and Fulton’s powerchair is broken so he’s had to continue using his old powerchair, which I’d thankfully got working again last summer in the anticipation of outfitting it as a beach wheelchair. It works fine, but it’s not as easy for him to drive so he constantly needs assistance. It means it’s not feasable to take any field trips or mental health day trips to the beach right now. Plus, Fulton is getting Confirmed next week and getting up to the altar is one of tricky things he needs help with so, I’m not sure how things are going to work out.

But it’s not all stress and strife. We did have a wonderful Easter. Tony’s parents were with us, and a friend of mine joined us for dinner as well. We had delicious lamb dinner and our usual family egg hunt. It was strange to not have Addie with us, but she had cooked her own Easter feast for her friends and had a good day.

Byron has made the decision to attend Tony’s and my alma mater Kutztown University. It’s also where my mom graduated from so, he’ll be a third generation KU student. I think he liked the idea of being a little closer to home (we’d be able to pick him up easily whenever he wants to visit vs flying or long road trips) and KU is larger than the University of Maine and offered more activities and classes/ minors he was interested in. I finally got some senior pictures taken of him and the photographer also snapped updated headshots of the rest of the crew (sans Addie who’s still at school). Everyone looks great and I’m thankful to have outsourced the homeschool photos.

Byron, his friend Leo, Fulton, and Teddy also created an entry for this year’s Easterseals Disability Film Challenge. If you’re not a fan of stabbing and fake blood, it’s probably not the movie for you, otherwise, enjoy.

I’m giving a talk at the Edna Mahan Correctional Facility for women tomorrow. I’ve never been in a prison before so I’m looking forward to speaking and meeting with the women there. I’m feeling less prepared than usual (see the above distractions) so say a prayer the holy spirit can carry this for me? Speaking of the Holy Ghost, we’ve also got Fulton’s Confirmation on Thursday. Byron and Edie were both chosen as sponsors by other students in Fulton’s class so, it’ll be a big celebration for everyone.

I’m sure I’m forgetting things. There’s been a lot I’ve wanted to document, but I just don’t have the space in my head to hold onto much for very long. Hopefully, after I’ve given my talk, and finished up a few projects for Accepting the Gift, I will be able to use my free time to write more. If you have any specific questions about our fostering experience, let me know. I’m not going to share much about Todd, but I’ll try to answer your questions. Until next time, enjoy this final moments of April because…

A New Parenting Level Is Unlocked

As we approach Passiontide, I thought it was time to update everyone on the big news around these parts (if you didn’t already see it on social media). We got our first foster placement on Thursday, March 24 around dinner time. I got the call on Tuesday and this child, who I’ll call Todd Flanders (in keeping with my use of Simpsons aliases), seemed to be a good fit for us. Obviously, I’m limited as to what I can share online but a week later I can say that it’s not too different from how I imagined. That’s not to say all is going well. There have been some very challenging times for Todd, and everyone in the family. Even though Tony and I knew we were signing up for something hard, it’s difficult to picture how much your life will be upended until you finally welcome that first foster child into your home.

Welcome Todd!

The behaviors he’s exhibiting are what I expected. I feel like Tony and I know how to manage behaviors. I just didn’t realize how forcing myself to remain calm and collected in the face of these behaviors for extended periods of time would cause me to be more irritable with my other children, lead to insomnia, and create feelings of pent up anger and anxiety that leave me tense to my core – like I might burst if I’m asked to do one more thing. So, I’m learning to manage my own behaviors and big feelings as much as I’m trying to help Todd. Sounds perfect for Lent right???

I also didn’t expect how some of the older kids would react (Todd is the youngest in our home). Some have really impressed me, and some are struggling with the changes more than I anticipated. We all know (and are all old enough to understand) that this transitional period is the hardest part. Even though it’s only been a week, Tony and I are seeing improvements and while we know it’s more likely to be a roller coaster ride rather than a straight climb to the top, we’re encouraged.

Biggest change: screen time. Todd is young and Tony and I agree he doesn’t need tons of tablet or XBox time. So we’re trying to rearrange our day so the older kids can have some screen time, or play certain XBox games while Todd’s in school, so in the evenings we can do other activities, or play XBox games he’s interested in or watch movies geared to his age level (and basically keep all tablets out of sight). Weekends are the hardest because screens are the one thing Teddy and Fulton can do for themselves (and they enjoy doing it together), so we allow them to do more screen time than the older kids did at those ages. But, we’re cutting back for the benefit of Todd, and it’s an adjustment. I think this situation will improve in time, but right now, it’s a sacrifice, and one that we didn’t initially anticipate as we prepared to foster younger children.

No Guts of War II for awhile.

This whole experience has also really driven home the importance of sincerely praising your children. We have to focus on a lot of positive reinforcement and praise in helping Todd. We could spend all our time trying to correct his myriad of bad behaviors, but then all we’d be doing is focusing on the negative. And while I’m not a fan of the “participation trophies to boost self-esteem” school of thinking, kids really do need to hear on a daily basis that they are inherently good, enjoyable to be around, lovable, and more than just a collection of behaviors. It’s about sincerely pointing out the effort that goes into trying to do better, be better, and remind our child that even when he is angry and out of control, that we still like him and want him with us. You’d be surprised what a young child can come to believe about himself when he never hears praise and kind words.

And since I’m trying to praise our foster son more, I’m making more of an effort to praise everyone else too. It’s equal parts apologies, praise, attention, and affection to help offset my increased testiness. Being a homeschool mom, I can look back and really see how hard it was for me to praise my kids while I was trying to be their teacher and mom when they were younger. I think I really struggled with how to get my kids to fix their mistakes and do their work, and praise them for their gifts and abilities. It’s a lot easier to be frustrated and make demands than be thoughtful, patient, and able to remain calm in the face of a child’s negative behaviors or poor choices. Doing so now is exhausting, and it’s turning my brain to mush. I’m in a new kind of survival mode.

The other observation I’ve made is that I can’t imagine fostering a child in my twenties. Being 43 with kids ranging in age from 11-19, I can look at what I’ve done and say, this worked, this didn’t. I can look at my kids, their gifts, their faults, and how I influenced them, or didn’t do enough and learn from it. I’m a much better parent now than when I became a mom at 24. I can’t imagine trying to parent a foster child, and mange all their needs, while trying to figure out parenting. I won’t go so far as to say I’m now a “parenting expert” and that I didn’t make mistakes, but I think this whole experience would be 100 times harder if I was second guessing my parenting decisions the whole time. At least now, even if Tony and I are not perfect, we’re united; we know what we need to do, we do it and 99 percent of the time we get the results we want because experience has taught us what works. Don’t get me wrong, the foster parent training offered to us was helpful, but only served to reinforce what we already knew through first-hand experience and observation. (I know there are wonderful foster parents in their twenties-I just don’t think I personally could’ve done it.)

I’m not sure how long Todd will be with us, but no, adoption is NOT on the table right now. It’s not even in the same room as the table, not even the same building. The goal of foster care is reunification and we are here to do our part as long as we’re needed.

Does this mean I’m now a foster care blogger?? I can’t imagine this blog needs any more topics or categories, and I’d hate for people to think I have anything other than my own stories to share. Maybe in ten years I’ll feel qualified to offer advice.

Please keep Todd, and our whole family in prayer. Thank you!

2022 Lent Documentation

We’ve passed the second Sunday of Lent so probably a good time to share some Lenten thoughts and goals and admit I’ve already gone to Confession for failing at the one thing Fulton and Teddy asked me to give up. I used to not like sharing my Lenten practices, then I overshared and did crazy things, now I’m just documenting another Lent for the blog so I can come back to it next year for planning purposes.

It’s a blog post but you get the idea. Is anyone else still writing blog posts???

It felt weird to go through February and not observe Lent. The long, cold, dark and dreary days naturally lend themselves to the quiet whining and longing of Lent. A late Easter, and Lent, means beautiful spring weather peeking through the clouds, more activities, and generally more temptation to do all the things I’ve given up.

On Tuesday we went to Ocean City for the first time this year (Spring Break!!) and it was tough for all of us to only purchase salt water taffy and not devour two thirds of it immediately upon exiting the store. Plus, the frozen custard stand was open, which hardly seemed fair.

I’m SUPER holy for Ash Wednesday and then its a struggle for the next 39 days.

So as you can guess, we’ve all given up sweets (which we do every year as a family). I did wonder how Addie would fair off at college, but at least while she’s home, she’s following our family tradition of pretending fruit is an acceptable dessert. I used this page with Fulton and Teddy to help them come up with some Lenten practices of their own. I can’t read Teddy’s handwriting all that well, so I just have to trust he’s taking things seriously. Edie is sleeping on the floor of her room which means it’s even harder than usual to walk through there, and I think there’s somehow less incentive to pick up her laundry. She did make room for Addie so that was kind of her.

I am once again turning to the Church to just tell me what to do for Lent and following the traditional Lenten fast (which was in place until 1962) Two small meals a day, one regular meal, and only meat with my regular meal. No Coke or alcohol except on Sundays (though I’m doing very bad at the no Coke thing. Some years that’s harder than others.) I’m also trying to plan meatless suppers for Wednesday since we eat meatless on Friday year round, but I’m allowing myself wiggle room there in case I have one of those days. I’m still not as hardcore as our Orthodox brothers and sisters though-maybe one day! To make things easier on myself, I’m prepping lunch salads for the week for Tony and I, and every morning for breakfast I’m having a fruit smoothie with protein powder. Easy, healthy, small meals I don’t need to think about has made fasting easier, though I usually start eating supper the minute I begin prepping food at 4 p.m. “Oh, does this meal call for shredded cheese? Better take that out first and consume two fist fulls to make sure it’s fresh.”

I’m trying to limit social media between the hours of 9-6p.m. and keep my phone either on my desk or in my bedroom rather than keeping it on me at all times.

I’ve got a devotional book I’m reading at night and really trying my darnedest to stick to that daily rosary habit. I’ve written down all my prayer intentions, so now when I pray I just say “For my Lenten intentions” with quiet relief that I don’t need to think of everything. God knows what’s on my list.

Fulton and Teddy suggested I give up cursing during Lent, which I agreed to, but then we had clarify that I was not to say the f-word or the s-word but damn, hell, and a$$, while not ideal, do not break my Lenten commitment. So yes, I already had to confess cursing because both boys are outgrowing their ankle braces and getting them on poses challenges that I sometimes react to with inappropriate words. But I’ve been better since Sunday; fingers crossed.

Or let it get run over by a wheelchair.

I’m not doing any special book or salt dough crown of thorns or beans in a jar thing with the kids. I just didn’t feel like adding one more thing to our daily religion routine this year. Maybe we’ll watch some extra religious movies during Holy Week. …just kicking that can down the road.

Sure, I want us all to suffer and grow in holiness this Lent, but I want it to be simple and straight forward. I’ve had a tendency to over complicate things in the path, for myself and the kids, and I’ve reached a point in my life where I just don’t have brain cells for much outside what I’m already doing. Especially when I know I’ll be fasting. Experience has taught me I’ll be more run down during Lent, and I can’t expect myself to have the energy to be super liturgical Catholic mom!!!! It’s best if I can just be not grumpy, not angry, and not exhausted Catholic mom. (Just a reminder that I gave up caffeine last Lent so I’m doing life on decaf which already puts me behind the eight ball, and probably explains my deep seated desire for Coke at all hours. )

As for almsgiving, I’ve identified a few organizations donating to families with disabled children in Ukraine and one organization helping SMA families in Ukraine or those who’ve left for Poland. Kids with SMA in Ukraine had been receiving the same medicine that Fulton and Teddy take and you just don’t stop taking it. SMA groups and drug manufactures are trying to track down families to make sure these kids can continue receiving the medicine they need to stay strong. If you’re interested I’m updating my Instagram stories with any and all charity organizations helping orphans, or disabled children and adults, including but not limited to those with SMA in Ukraine. Please let me know of any others either on IG or in the comments.

How is your Lent going?

February In A Blur

I recently hit my ten year blogging milestone here at This Ain’t the Lyceum. I toyed with the idea of a special post but I’ve done enough reflecting on the past in previous years, so instead, I will summarize February – the month that started with a big, empty calendar and quickly descended into chaos. (For the record, I started this post in February. It just took longer than expected to finish it up.)

To everyone who keeps asking, Teddy is doing much better (and yes even now in March people are still asking- sorry for the delay in updating y’all!!) We were in the hospital for less than 36 hours which may be an overnight emergency admissions record. We’ve learned that Teddy just can’t ride out a stomach bug at home once its been 48 hours of throwing up. He also doesn’t respond to anti-nausea meds (orally or via IV) so he needs the IV fluids until he stops throwing up. We were admitted on a Thursday, home on a Friday night and I still manged to grocery shop Saturday, food prep, and host a small Superbowl party on Sunday.

There were cupcakes and root beer floats for dessert.

Monday we drove to Upstate New York for a family funeral. Tony’s aunt died after a long and courageous battle against pancreatic cancer. Despite being diagnosed at stage 4, she fought for almost five years before passing away. Although we had not seen her, or that side of the family for many years, we really wanted to be there. Tony and I lived in Syracuse after our college graduation until right after Byron was born, and we visited the Upstate region at least yearly until about 2009, with our last visit in 2011 for Tony’s grandmother’s funeral. So even though none of the kids really remembered anyone, it was nice to see that side of the family again despite the somber circumstances. We even made a side trip to an art museum in the time between family events. Leave it to homeschoolers to find any reason to make a trip educational. But really, it was either that or sit in the hotel and listen to the kids get really caught up in the Olympics (i.e. lots of yelling about athletes they’ve cared about for all of two minutes.)

Coming home after almost two weeks of sudden upheaval was….mildly stressful. I spent the rest of the week and weekend trying to play catch up. I told myself that the last full week of February would be fine and we’d do all the school work we hadn’t completed over the last multipledaysallmuddledtogether. Even with a couple dentist appointments thrown in there.

But only until Friday, because I’d planned, rescheduled and then tried to regain my enthusiasm for another field trip. This time in my hometown of Lancaster, PA. We were going to have lunch with my parents and grandmother, visit the Lancaster History museum, tour President James Buchanan’s house, and then have dinner with my parents before driving home. It would just be me and the younger three.

The museum was smaller than expected, and we were all dismayed to see more parking by the front door given to “low emissions vehicles” than handicap spaces, but we enjoyed the exhibit about Lancaster through the 60’s (1660-1960), perusing the gift shop (museum gift shops are a weakness of mine- it’s all educational right?!?), and watching the introductory video on James Buchanan, whose sexuality they address right out of the starting gate. Fulton was like, “How many times are they going to talk about this??” two minutes into the film.

But thankfully, the film quickly pivoted to how lousy of a president he was. I mean, you can’t place the full blame of the Civil War on his shoulders but, his inaction and proslavery views certainly didn’t help keep the country together. I hadn’t been to his home, called Wheatland, since elementary school. (It’s a rite of passage for anyone who grows up in the area.) The first floor was wheelchair accessible, and when Edie and my mom went with our costumed guide to the second floor, a separate guide came inside and explained the upstairs layout with pictures to Fulton, Teddy, and I, and answered all our questions. It was really neat.

Yay history!!!

The next day Tony and I went to a small wedding at church. It was a beautiful Mass and a fun reception. There was a photo booth, so there might be evidence of middle aged craziness….maybe.

But you’ll have to settle for this tame selfie.

Throughout the month we dealt with nursing shortages. Two long time nurses left at the beginning of the month, and no sooner did a few of those days get picked up, then another nurse left. It’s been hard at times, but not impossible. I feel SO GRATEFUL we got the ceiling lift when we did, and that Tony works from home. I know there’s nursing shortages across the board and it’s easier for our family than for others so I’m trying to take it in stride and be grateful for the help we do have.

I still managed to get a lot of work down for my ministry Accepting the Gift (part of which was finally hiring a graphic designer). Check out the new Shop to see some of the new resources and curriculum we’ve got listed.

As I wiped clean my giant calendar and filled in squares for March, all I could wonder was how quickly the empty blocks would fill up. Now to take a breath and get to work on a belated Lent post!!

2021-22 Homeschool Midyear Review

I’m sitting in the hospital with Teddy while he recovers from a stomach bug (he’s doing much better), so why not a mid-year homeschool review to make me feel good about all the learning we’ve managed to do up to this point? (With the obligatory affiliate links dropped in at a few spots.)

UPDATE: As of 3:30 p.m. Friday, we’re getting discharged!

The last time a hospital stay interrupted our school year was November 2019, which was also the last time Teddy had a stomach bug. It’s been a good run, but this year after getting in 12 weeks, we took a few weeks off as Teddy underwent and started his recovery from back surgery. We got a few “light” weeks in just before Christmas, but only really got back in our groove after Epiphany. I was thinking about scheduling a break at the end of February, but decided we should plow through until Addie and Byron are both on spring break. I’ve planned numerous field trips to break up the long, cold month of February, but despite still masking in crowds, washing hands, and generally not being around a ton of people, Teddy caught a stomach bug and threw a wrench in my plans. It’s slightly more stressful than usual because Fulton has not been getting all his nursing hours covered, so we don’t reliably have an extra set of hands around to help with his care.

It’s another reminder that we are never in control and there is never a “normal” homeschooling week. And with that lengthy introduction…



His fall classes at the community college went well. He’s only taking two more this spring, and he’s also taking an online financial literacy course that Addie also took. (It’s free and very thorough; I highly recommend it.) He got his first college acceptance letter from John Paul the Great Catholic University. He’s waiting to hear from a few others before making a final decision.


Edie got to take one Time4Writing Course before the platform discontinued its program. So, for this semester, she’s taking a similar course from Write At Home.

Everything else is actually still going according to plan except for her restarting guitar and taking art classes. But she’s now the bosun for her Sea Scouts troop and she finished sewing a regency style dress (with matching bonnet!) so, it’s not like she’s wasting time. I continue to rely on Google Classroom for collecting and grading work and it remains a godsend for me. (Plug for my ebook that can teach anyone how to use Google Classroom in their homeschool.)


Through the app Speechify, Fulton has been reading a bunch of great history books tied to the Middle Ages. We’ve been doing narrations but found that speech to text on his iPad doesn’t work well when Teddy keeps talking loudly in the background…on purpose. So I type up his narrations instead.

The new math program I purchased lasted only a few weeks before I got too frustrated with it. Had I started using it from the beginning it might have worked, but it assumed I understood it’s unique way of presenting topics (which I didn’t because I was started a few levels in) and it also assumed the student could work through problems with it’s special manipulatives on his or her own, which obviously wasn’t the case for us. I tried to work through problems with Fulton but ultimately, I went back old reliable Abeka math. Instead of hands-on manipulatives, I’m using online Montessori tools that allow Fulton to visualize and work through the problems independently on his tablet. Montessori tools can be used to work on pretty high level math problems so it’s worth checking out if you have a student who needs a new way to see a problem. Just Google “Montessori” and the math concept you need help with and see what comes up. I’ve found lots of great videos and posts.

I’ve also created a curated collection of educational videos for him that he enjoys watching. They relate to history more than anything as his current interests include the Byzantine Empire and the Spanish American War, but really anything war related is fair game.


No changes from my original plan except that he never choses to do Mind Benders. I consider them optional, so I don’t push, but it may be something I make him do over the summer instead.

Family Subjects: From Morning Meeting to Afternoon Tea

We’ve kept all the same subjects (Shakespeare, Latin prayers, art appreciation, music appreciation, geography, and Bible) but we switched to the Michael Kurek site for music (highly recommended). None of the kids would recommend Shakespeare’s play King John (you’ve been warned). We also moved our meeting time from the morning to the afternoon a couple weeks back and so far so good. Tea, hot cocoa, and biscotti make everything better apparently…but not King John. Seriously, spare yourself.

Wednesday’s have become our science, history, and art project day for Fulton and Teddy. We don’t always get an art project done (simply because it’s challenging to find projects for the boys to do to their satisfaction), but we’ve been making progress through the Middle Ages (as evidenced by our growing timeline) and our Geology unit.

I did stop using the grammar program I’d selected (because I just hate studying grammar), and instead of listening to more historically based stories during afternoon stretches, we’ve been working through the Harry Potter series (which Teddy has read, but Fulton has not). Although we’re currently wrapping up Across Five Aprils which is a good Civil War story and free with my Audible account.

So school is going “according to plan” for the most part, and I’m not feeling the same level of burnout I did back in October, but I am frustrated by the lack of time I have for anything else during the day, especially with constant nursing shortages. I am already exploring different options for the next school year.

How is your school year going and how are you making it through the cold, dark month of February? (And if you live where it’s not cold and dark, your comments aren’t necessary.)

Winter Happenings

It’s been a minute, so I thought I should post an update so 1. everyone knows our home is COVID free now and 2. I can document all the usual things that have happened. Otherwise, I’m gonna start forgetting things.

Byron tested negative for COVID on Wednesday, January 19. He still had a bit of a cough, but I knew that could linger for awhile so I had him retest and it was negative! What a relief! No one else in the house ever got any symptoms, and those of us that tested were all negative. I don’t know how we managed to be so lucky.

I know other special needs families who worked harder than us and still had COVID invade their homes and infect everyone. It’s so discouraging. Illness makes caregiving harder. An illness, no matter how mild often sets our children back for weeks or months; long after typical kids are “back to normal”. We’re already faced with our child’s mortality more often than other parents, and whenever things slip outside our careful routine, we immediately slip into defensive mode. We know what it’s like to see our children fight for their lives and there’s trauma in having to go through that process over and over again. Please pray for my friends fighting COVID in their homes right now, and those adapting to the lingering affects on their families.

Addie tested negative on the same day as Byron and was happy to head back to classes (which started on the same day due to the MLK holiday and then a snow day on Tuesday). However- PLOT TWIST! – the school required her to take another COVID test on Friday and it was positive! Since she’d had the negative test on Wednesday, they told her she needed to quarantine until the following Thursday. So, after 36 hours of freedom, it was back to quarantine. On Monday morning she got a call that she actually needed to quarantine in a different, private room, in another dorm (I think to protect her one roommate who’d never had COVID). So she rode out the rest of her quarantine elsewhere. Thank goodness she was actually healthy enough to move all her stuff across the street and up to the 18th floor of another dorm. We assumed that since she would be released on Thursday, she would be able to compete over the weekend at Notre Dame with her fencing team but no! of course the NCAA has a very lengthy “back to play” process for athletes coming off of COVID quarantine. (Which I think was a surprise to her coaches since they used her photo on promotional images and had already booked her hotel room for the event.) So while she got to travel along to the competition, she didn’t get to fence. The athletic trainer expects her to be cleared in time for the competition this coming weekend at Northwestern. Hopefully, the rest of her semester is uneventful going forward.

We celebrated not having germs by going to the New Jersey State Museum in Trenton last Tuesday. It was fabulous. We were the only patrons in the museum until after lunch, which meant I let the boys drive all over yelling at each other with very little interference on my part.

Dinosaur skeletons fighting? Yes please! Every other natural history museum take note.
“MAMA! Take my picture with these paintings! They’re so ugly!!”
Edie matching the exhibits. (If you can’t tell, her vest and earrings are Egyptian inspired.)
The only time Teddy wouldn’t smile for a photo. Large chunks of ice on the Delaware river behind us.

Tony and I have been working on small home projects on the weekends and I’ve spent the rest of my time working on the second month of the Accepting the Gift Religious Education Curriculum. Check it out HERE! I have two more projects I need to layout and launch before the March curriculum release so you’ll understand if blogging remains light. Eventually, I do want to hire more people to help with editing and layout, but until I get my taxes done and know how much money Uncle Sam is leaving me for the coming months, I’m still trying to DIY a huge chunk myself.

Edie is busy planning Sea Scout meetings, and is already getting information from every Maritime college in the country (or at least it feels like it). She’s also baking a lot which makes Addie’s absence easier to deal with.

We’ve moved our homeschool ‘morning meeting’ to the afternoon and are now trying afternoon tea time, which is a big hit because snacks. It means even Byron is trying to join us to steal some biscotti. Teddy is also happier because then he can get all his schoolwork done in the morning. Fulton is the only dissenting voice to the new routine because it required change. I’ve got some more field trips planned for the next few weeks to help me through winter. It’s been too cold for the boys to be outside, and now we’ve got about a foot of snow on the ground which is too deep to even slide around on the patio. At least the wheelchair repair guy finally made it out, albeit without the correct batteries for Fulton’s chair. Also, daylight is lasting later and later everyday and I’m clinging to that brief glimpse of spring with all my might.

Have a great week!

COVID In Da House

The inevitable has happened; COVID has entered our home. On Tuesday, after a couple days of mild congestion and coughing, Byron took a COVID test (we had several at home thanks to Fulton’s nursing agency) and it gave a positive result pretty quickly. We assume he picked it up at work. Tuesday was also the day Teddy got his second COVID shot. I guess I knew that someone in the house would eventually get COVID, I’d just hoped that Teddy would be further out from his second shot before we had to test everyone’s immunity.

Addie took a test and was negative. She headed back to school on a Greyhound early Wednesday morning (like, 3 a.m. early). Initially, she needed to get back early for a fencing tournament, but she got word on Tuesday that it was cancelled due to COVID. She elected to head back early anyway, and I don’t blame her. I think she wanted to get back to her private room and life of relative silence. Unfortunately, she started feeling sick on Saturday. Is it COVID? The flu? Did she get it at home, on the bus, or from a roommate? Who knows. The soonest she can get a test is today so long as the campus testing center isn’t closed for the holiday. I was so happy she was able to head back for in-person classes for the spring semester, but it looks like she may miss some classes anyway. She had a bad cold in the fall, and I’m bummed she’s already sick again.

Edie also took a test and it was negative. She and the rest of us remain free of symptoms. We’re all staying put, and Byron is quarantining in the basement. Whenever he needs to come upstairs he puts on a N95 and avoids the rest of us. The community college pushed back its start day by a week so at least he’s not going to miss any of his classes. McDonald’s requires him to be symptom free for two days before returning to work.

Since we’re all vaccinated, I’m less worried than I would’ve been a year ago at this time. But even a mild infection could lay up either of the boys for awhile, so hopefully they remain symptom free. One of the biggest downsides is that three of Fulton’s nurses won’t work in our house if there’s a positive family member. I’m not mad at them, but the agency is short staffed, so as long as Byron, or anyone, is positive, I’ll be flying solo for half the week (we usually don’t have coverage on Sundays).

Teddy is now two months out from his spinal fusion surgery and is doing well. His back isn’t bothering him, but he continues to have nerve pain around his right hip, and down his right leg. We started school this week, and resumed our usual stretching routine. I need to take things slower than usual, and he’s stiff, but I’m hopeful that his pain will decrease and his flexibility increase. Fulton dealt with similar pain in both legs and I know it took awhile to completely resolve. Teddy has required some pain meds at bedtime and thankfully, he’s swallowing pills with no problems. We fought for so long over the awful tasting liquid medicines, and I was so afraid of pills being a choking hazard, but Teddy actually swallows pills easier than me so yay for progress in whatever form it takes.

Our back to school week included more take out than expected, but unfortunately, not the scheduled field trip. Repairs to the boys wheelchairs also got delayed for the second week in a row due to the repair guy being sick. But all in all, its all minor inconveniences compared to so many.

We’ll see how this week plays out. Thankfully we don’t have much going on, so staying put isn’t that difficult. But your prayers that everyone else stays healthy, and that Addie and Byron recover are much appreciated! Thank you!

Advent and the 12 Days

I wanted to lump all my Advent/ Christmas/ Epiphany stories and photos in one place, even though it probably would have been easier to write multiple shorter posts throughout the last two weeks. But, after taking the last two days to undecorate and reorganize ALL. THE. THINGS. I’m finally exhausted enough to sit still and write my post.

A big Advent highlight worth mentioning; I entered three of our family’s favorite cookies in our town paper’s Christmas cookie contest and took 3rd place for my bar cookie, and two honorable mentions for my chocolate chip and holiday cookie entries. WOOT! I actually got a medal (which I have yet to pick up, but which will feature prominently in an upcoming photo shoot for sure).

We started decorating on Gaudete Sunday following Tony’s near impossible tree hunt. Even though we buy our tree later than most, we usually are still able to find a really nice tree. However pickings were slim this year. Once all the decorations were on, the tree looked fine, but we only got one candle lighting in this year instead of the usual three to four; it just dried out too fast.

For the last two years I’ve made limoncello as a gift for Fulton’s nurses and the girl’s fencing coaches. This year, I made Kahlua and Irish Cream and got no complaints.

We added two other trees to our home as well. I wanted a vintage looking silver tinsel tree for the basement with some of those bubbly lights. I also added some of our older glass ornaments in gold and pastel colors. It made me so happy every time I saw it. Tony wanted a tree on the screened in porch since he likes to sit outside in the evening, so he got a small flocked tree and added some white lights. My tinsel tree came with some colored plastic balls so Tony added a few to his tree since we didn’t need to worry about the wind blowing them off and breaking them.

Merry Christmas circa 1960.

We traded our purple and pink Advent lights for colored lights on Christmas Eve, and after attending our friends Christmas Eve party, we came home, lit the candles on our tree, and sang carols before Addie and Tony prepared for midnight Mass. I had actually managed to get all the gifts wrapped a few days prior so I didn’t need to stay up too late arranging everyone’s presents around the living room.

Christmas morning started around 7 a.m., and by 8:30 a.m. all the presents were open. The big surprise was we bought the boys an XBox. But don’t feel bad for the girls; Addie got a Samsung smartwatch and Edie got a photo printer. What I noticed now that the kids are older is that the piles of gifts were significantly smaller. Only Teddy got a HUGE toy (from grandparents). It was the same amount of stuff, but teens tend to want smaller items. There was less packaging and less mess than previous years and I AM HERE FOR THIS PHASE OF LIFE.

It’s a lot of packaging, but those are the biggest items they got. So portable!
Look at that tiny pile of gifts!! All that will easily fit in his bedroom somewhere.
Meanwhile, here’s Teddy’s new Hot Wheels garage which is actually larger than our own garage. It also takes 4 D batteries or the equivalent of one small coal burning power-plant.

We snacked on panettone before heading to 10:30 a.m. Mass; but not before putting the Turducken in the oven! We came home, had an appetizer spread and I worked on some side dishes. We had our dinner around 3:30 after the John Madden documentary wrapped up. (Did you know he was Catholic?) The Turducken (which is a deboned duck, stuffed in a deboned chicken, stuffed in a deboned turkey with layers of stuffing in between) was good, but we don’t need to eat it every year. We did a Zoom call with my parents and extended family and just enjoyed a relaxing food-coma filled day at home.

Appetizer Menu:

  • Crackers (way too many types) and multiple cheeses (Brie, cheddar, gouda, orange cheese spread, and something Spanish)
  • Italian deli meats (also way too many)
  • Spinach dip with fresh bread
  • Shrimp cocktail

Every year I think, I don’t need to get so many appetizers. It’s only going to ruin our appetite for dinner! But then I worry we won’t have enough snacks to hold us until dinner is ready and I buy a few more items.

Dinner Menu:

  • Turducken
  • Mashed potatoes with gravy
  • Homemade ravioli (I actually forgot to make these on Christmas so we ate them the next day after Mass.)
  • Fruit salad (I forgot to buy the supplies for this so Tony made it for New Year’s Eve.)
  • Roasted green beans with almonds
  • Creamed corn casserole
  • Fresh bread

Desserts (I always bake cookies a few days before Christmas and try to save the bulk for dessert on the day…with limited success.)

  • Creme de Menthe bar cookies
  • Dates stuffed with peanut butter
  • Spiced chai cookies
  • Double Delicious Bars

During the following 12 days we took a day trip to visit my parents in Lancaster. (We were concerned with how Teddy would do, but he did well with the car ride. He is still experiencing some nerve pain in his right leg but it’s at the level we expected for right now and it’s not holding him back from what he wants to do.) We got snow, and with the new patio Fulton and Teddy went out and drove around with minimal slipping, sliding, and sticking. So technically it was a white Christmas, even if it wasn’t on the first day of Christmas.

Of course everyone played lots of XBox games together, and Fulton got Warhammer 40000 so Tony spent much of his week off work assembling figures for the game. I put the finishing touches on the new home-based religion curriculum for Accepting the Gift whenever I got a spare minute.

And we made a gingerbread house. We chilled it outside between steps and that seemed to make stick together better. In general our screened in porch becomes a second refrigerator during the holidays.

A friend gave us a traditional Christmas pudding so we lit it on fire (as instructed!) and gave it a try. New Year’s was rainy, so we didn’t walk downtown to see the giant blueberry drop, but we could stream it online. Addie made a king cake for 12th night (Fulton found the hidden “baby” and was king.) Tony and the older four went to Epiphany Mass on the 6th while Teddy and I streamed it at home (due to his leg being sore and sensitive by the end of the day.)

We start school up this week, and Addie heads back to Cleveland early Wednesday morning. It’s been a wonderful break and Christmas season and I found myself sad, for the first time in many years, that it was time to take the decorations down (I did leave up two ceramic light up trees, and the nativity to keep the Christmas feeling going until Candlemas). I got quite a bit of reorganizing done, though I have a few more shelves to hang, and I’m caught up on uploading Edie’s school work, so I’m feeling less overwhelmed with stuff and school than I typically do heading into January. I’ve got several more Accepting the Gift projects to launch in the coming weeks so we’ll see how long I feel “less overwhelmed”.

I hope all my friends and followers had a wonderful Christmas and New Year’s! Feel free to drop a link in the comments if you posted your holiday memories anywhere.

2022 New Year’s Resolutions

It’s time to review last year’s resolutions (including one I’d totally forgotten about) and set some goals for the new year, as well as select a new beast to guide me in monstrous fashion through 2022.

First things first; how’d I do with last year’s resolutions?

  • Eat healthy as a family. – Spurred on by reading another health book I resolved to phase out vegetable oils from our family’s diet. I’d hoped to introduce some other healthier foods into our diet as well, but ultimately only the reduced vegetable oil part stuck. In the beginning, it was tough to cut out certain foods, but in time I found substitutes for many things, and others we made do without or enjoyed them only on special occasions. In general, once school started back up in August (which is also when we have a lot of family birthdays) more vegetable oils creeped back into our diet, but it’s now a lot easier for me to meal plan, grocery shop, and prepare meals sans vegetable oils. I had my own personal health goals that I adopted later in the year that I was pretty successful at, and I’m going to devote another post to that topic exclusively at some point in the near future (not because I think you’re all dying to know, but because I want to document some stuff). But overall, I think there were some good changes made.
  • Commit to a daily prayer time. – Eh. Definitely haven’t developed a habit, though there were times during the year that I was consistent for long stretches.
  • Continue to grow Accepting the Gift. – This was where I was probably most successful. Competing in the OSV Challenge opened up a world of opportunities for my ministry. I’m now working on projects with a team of a contributors I couldn’t have imagined last year at this time.
  • Read more books. – I’d really fallen behind in reading in 2020 and so I set a goal of 30 books for 2021. I finished 27, so not too bad. I’ve set a new goal of 40 books for 2022 that I’m not making an “official” resolution, so I won’t stress out about it.
  • Engage with my followers in a balanced way to ensure a successful book release, while not tying myself to social media. – There were times I really tried to up my engagement on social media, especially on Instagram, in the last year. But honestly, I just didn’t want to, and many times it felt forced. I do like scrolling and seeing what others are up to, but I simply don’t want to post more on social media. Did it affect my book release? I don’t know. I’m sure more social posts would’ve helped but it would’ve come at the cost of homeschooling, housekeeping, sleeping, and I was already struggling in all those areas post-OSV Challenge. I really couldn’t find a good balance.
  • Catch up on all my own medical appointments. – Oh hey! I made this a resolution! I did get to an eye doctor in February, and then forgot to make any other appointments.

And now onto 2022!! In reading through my past resolution posts I find there are some typical resolution categories: prayer, diet and exercise, social media, writing or “professional”, and the all encompassing “how to deal with the overwhelming chaos that is my life”. It’s good to see how I’ve actually achieved some of the big goals I set for myself through the years (exercise regularly, write a book, read War and Peace, organize our digital photos, grow my ministry), but it can also be frustrating to see how some things never seem to change. One year I made a list of a few big things I accomplished that were not resolutions, and that helped to put things in perspective.

For 2022, I want to:

  • Continue to work on building a habit of daily prayer and incorporating more silent prayer and time in Adoration.
  • Continue with the changes I’ve made to our family’s diet while always striving to do better, specifically through including a wider variety of whole foods at each meal.
  • Continue with my exercise routine and try to increase in strength.
  • Not take on any new projects!!!!!! I have a list of projects to work on for Accepting the Gift, and I’m compiling a list of home and crafting projects to focus on finishing. At the end of the year, hopefully I’ll have a list of accomplishments to be proud of.
  • I would like to get off social media entirely and deactivate my accounts, however, that might become a big project if I try to move groups or save information from various platforms. So, I need to think about this a bit more, but maybe just figuring out logistics should actually be the resolution.

And my beast? I’m going with BIG FOOT! Strong, hairy, silent, able to invoke fear with just a glance; that seems about right for 2022. When things get tough, I can just escape to the woods to sulk and take grainy selfies.

Don’t forget to pick your own beast with my RANDOM BEAST SPINNER!!! Who needs a word or a saint when you can have a whole epic beast???

To all my friends and followers, Happy New Year, and may all your resolutions come true!! (You can check my track record by reading all my resolution posts HERE.)

2021 Year In Review

It’s the 2021 Year in Review post! For when I want to take a stroll down memory lane quickly, without having to scroll through all my uncategorized posts. I’ve got some favorite books listed (affiliate links), popular posts, updates on the family, and some pictures. It’s like the Christmas letter you used to write for the extended family you never saw, except at funerals.


We entered a new month, and a new year that felt strangely like the previous ten except colder. But to make staying home even better, we finally installed hardwood floors in our living and dining rooms, and I intituted a new family diet free of most vegtable oils. (Seriously. I’ll outline it all in another post.)

Favorite Read

Bourbon Empire: I drink bourbon and whiskey now and act like I can tell the difference between various brands. I didn’t plan on becoming pretentious this year, but here we are.

Date night in a plastic igloo with a heater and drinks. No problems staying warm!


We enjoyed substantial snow for New Jersey (much to the kids delight), and Byron dislocated his elbow while learning Brazilian Jiu Jitsu. Not the worst injury one could get while learning MMA fighting, but it prevented him from practicing his driving or working at McDonald’s for longer than I expected. By this point, many of the older kids activities resumed (fencing, FNE scouting, MMA) with masks and distancing, and Edie even added a new extra-curricular to the mix with Sea Scouts.

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I also went over the top for the Superbowl with our new snack stadium.


The boys worked together with Byron’s friend to create a film contest entry that still makes me laugh. I completed my book edits and looked forward to a fall release. We celebrated one year of quarantine by, surprise!, not going anywhere. While the older kids worked and did activities, we were still cautious with Fulton and Teddy and usually attended the less crowded Saturday evening Mass at our parish, and continued to avoid large gatherings. But at the end of the month, I got my first COVID shot and we all started getting more hopeful.

Happy Mothering Sunday to me!


We started the month with a large Easter feast to break our Lenten fast. My 20th Easter as a Catholic! A few weeks later I started torturing myself in new ways by lifting weights in the basement. I can’t remember anything else from this month which means I must have been stressed out about something.

Favorite Read

I discovered Peter Lovesey mysteries at my library and enjoyed several. They’ve become a favorite go to when I need a fun mystery.

Easter dinner!


I spent most of May fighting for the second time in six months to keep 12 hours of nursing care for Fulton, and filling out paperwork for the OSV Challenge. Little did I know that this was only the beginning of the OSV Challenge taking up all my free time!

We still managed to squeeze in a beach day amidst it all.


I lost my appeal to keep nursing care, and, exhausted, gave up the fight for the time being. Instead we celebrated our new ceiling mounted lift in the boys room and Fulton becoming a teenager on the 28th! I also learned that all that OSV paperwork paid off, and my fledgling apostolate Accepting the Gift was selected as one of 24 semi-finalists and awarded $10,000. We also learned that Teddy would need spinal fusion surgery this year, and I picked a date in November that might impact the holidays, but would assure he’d be recovered enough to attend summer camp in 2022. #priorities


WE WENT TO FLORIDA! The boys enjoyed a week at summer camp. Tony and I enjoyed a week to recharge our batteries. The older kids learned that staying home alone just equals more responsibilities, and we topped it off with van trouble that extended our trip by a day. But that wasn’t all! We managed to hold our annual Nativity of St. John the Baptist party, and, after missing a year, went all out with a whole roast pig and fireworks. I started the OSV Challenge Accelerator program and realized the rest of my summer was shot.

Favorite Read

The Dyslexic Advantage: Excellent must read book for any dyslexic adult, or parent of a dyslexic child, especially very severe cases. If your child is six and still reversing letters, you don’t need to read this book. But if you have a struggling teenager, this is the book that will help you understand how his or her brain works, and identify his or her strengths.

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Tony turned 43! He continued working from home this year, with no end to that arrangement in sight. It’s a dream come true. Edie and I drove with Addie to Cleveland to drop her off for her sophomore year of college, and her first year at Cleveland State University. It was quite the adjustment to not having one of my kids at home. I also learned that Accepting the Gift was not selected as a finalist in the OSV Challenge and wallowed for a solid weekend about that. We started our XXX year of homeschooling and recess improved exponentially by the addition of a large concrete patio in our yard.

Great read

Hillbilly Elegy: I think most people have heard of this book by now, especially since it’s been made into a movie. It’d been on my ‘To Read’ list for years and I finally got it from the library at the urging of a friend. Very enlightening look at a side of life in America we don’t hear nearly enough about. If we want to understand why people act, or vote, the way they do, we need to listen to a wider range of voices.

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Byron finally gets his drivers license, and in the process becomes a master at parallel parking. He can now get himself to all his classes at the community college. I turn 43, and Addie turns 19 away from home. My parents visit with her and leave her with lots of cake.

Favorite Read

Talking to Strangers: Another interesting book from Malcolm Gladwell about the ways we misunderstand one another to the detriment of all parties involved. Also a reminder on how without doing a lot of digging around, you rarely know all the information surrounding a sensational court case.

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I’m hardly sweating at all!


After years of work, my book Better Than OK launched on Teddy’s 11th birthday. I held an Oktoberfest themed party to celebrate (the book). Tony and I celebrated 20 years of marriage on the 13th and another ongoing “project” wrapped up (or maybe just began) as we became licensed foster parents. We wrapped up the month by adding another adult to our home by celebrating Byron’s 18th birthday on the 29th.

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Don’t worry! I didn’t get to sit back on my laurels and enjoy my accomplishments for too long! The day of Teddy’s spinal fusion surgery at Shriner’s Hospital in Philly was upon us before I knew it. Everything went well, and we held Thanksgiving at our house for the first time ever (thanks to the hard work of my mom) as Teddy continues to recover at home. Addie made it home from Cleveland for the first time since August and immediately was overcome with all the noise…and love; noisy love.

Favorite Read

The Dorito Effect: Learn about why unhealthy food tastes so good, and why healthy food tastes worst than it should.

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We start the month with some exciting college visits for Byron and Addie finally got word from the NCAA that she can officially fence for Cleveland State. It’s been a long battle that started her senior year of high school, but thankfully, she’s now a Division 1 fencer and her first tournament was at Ohio State. Edie turned Sweet 16 on the 16th and I thought about preparing for another driver. She continues to love Sea Scouts and was promoted to Bosun for the coming year. Despite having an emergency room visit, and an inpatient hospital stay, we didn’t have any emergency illnesses that resulted in an inpatient stay for the second year in a row which is HUGE for this family. Byron got promoted to manager at McDonald’s and everyone is looking forward to a Christmas break of food, Minecraft, boardgames, movies, and time with friends. We can thank God for another blessed year.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all my readers!!!!

College Planning 2.0

Coming to you from the backwoods of Maine, its a long-winded post on visiting colleges, a.k.a. I thought I knew what Byron would be doing next year, but when I actually asked him, he had other ideas (plus a stroll down memory lane as I recall my own college selection process).

(If you want an update on Teddy, know that he’s doing well enough to have started school back up this week much to his dismay. He was also able to go to our local church just down the street for the Feast of the Immaculate Conception. Not sure he’s up for the 25 minute drive to our usual parish, but it was nice to all go as a family again.)

Back to college planning. Just to back track a bit, I’ve never been the type to stress about college (at least until Addie’s senior year of high school). Getting my kids into an Ivy League school has never been our goal as parents. So I always figured college, or trade school, or religious life, or a gap year- whatever! would just sort itself out. I don’t recall my parents ever directing me. They took me to one college fair, and one admissions presentation for RIT, and basically said they couldn’t afford to send me to any of the places I was interested in so keep looking. I saw a presentation for a small two year art school in the fall of my senior year of high school and decided that’s where I’d go to study photography. It was the only place I applied to and I toured zero campuses. When I realized I made a mistake pretty much right away, I applied to Kutztown University (a PA state school) because someone at the art school I was attending said it had a good photography program. My mom had attended there, but graduated with a degree in education. I’d never toured the campus or knew anything else about it. I started there in the spring of my freshman year. Thankfully, it worked out and I graduated in May 2000 with a BA in General Studies (meaning I designed my own major to include primarily writing and photography courses).

All this is to say, I have no first hand experience of how to stress about “getting into the right school” or even deciding between multiple schools. Tony looked at a few schools, picked one to play football at, and when that didn’t work out, and he decided to switch majors, he wound up at Kutztown University with me his sophomore year. All both of us have ever been concerned about is helping our kids graduate college (if they choose to go to college) with as little debt as possible. We had minimal debt when we graduated and that made all the difference for us. So, while there are several very nice Catholic colleges that my friends rave about, getting my child to attend a Catholic college, or say Harvard, has never been our primary goal. (I understand the spiritual benefits to attending a Catholic college but I’m just not sold on the idea that my children NEED to attend one of a select number of colleges to be good Catholics.)

When Addie started looking, fencing was a big consideration and it was only then I learned about all the NCAA regulations. It threw a huge monkey wrench in my low stress, laid back approach to college. (As did COVID and a freshman year spent at home.) Ultimately, now that she’s settled in at Cleveland State University and approved by the NCAA to officially fence (yay!), we can heave a sigh of relief and say it all worked out for the best. It’s an affordable education in the field of her choosing. It’s allowing her to fence competitively at the collegiate level, and she’s found a good spiritual home there, along with good friends and teammates.

I thought I could try the laid back approach with Byron. He’s been taking lots of art classes at the community college, as well as regular classes for dual credit and I thought he would graduate high school, and within another year, get his Associates in Fine Art from the community college. But in checking with Byron as we planned out the fall semester, (“Is this still what you want to do???”) he said that while he enjoyed art he realized he didn’t want to make a career out of it. He instead wanted to study creative writing with the goal of becoming a screen writer, and he wanted to go away to college, (far away actually), rather than continue to attend the community college after graduation.

“That’s FINE!” I said with no discernible surprise. “We just need to totally revamp what you’re doing this year then. NO BIG DEAL!” And so he signed up for the SAT, we picked classes for his senior year with a goal of attending a four year college, and we started looking for affordable colleges and universities where he could study creative writing. We picked a couple to visit before winter break, and he’ll spent his free time around Christmas applying to his top choices. Thankfully, we’ve already got the FAFSA filed. I know it will all work out fine, JUST FINE THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

But it’s all so last minute again. Edie will be a junior next year and I’ve finally learned that as much as I want to be laid back, we’ll need to do some planning in the spring of 2023, if not before.

But geez, I can’t think about Edie now, let’s get back to Byron. We visited my alma mater Kutztown on December 3. It’s been 21 years since I walked over the campus and obviously, a lot has changed. I took zero nice pictures of Byron and I and about a million of random things I needed to text to Tony. “Look! They still have this ugly sculpture on campus!” “They named the stadium after Andre Reed!” “They finally fixed up the alumni brick grills!” I also had to text my former roommates as the building we had stayed in our senior year is now the “Honors Hall”. Ha! I’m putting that on my resume. Byron liked Kutztown, and being there made me strangely nostalgic. It’s super affordable, and I can attest that the writing program is solid, so I’m probably a bit biased, but I think it’s a good contender.

Sculpture I’ve been making fun of since 1997.

This weekend, Byron and I are in Farmington Maine. MAINE! I’ve never been so far north. Byron wants to be somewhere colder, so we looked at the Maine state college system and he decided to tour University of Maine Farmington. We flew into Augusta from Boston on a Cessna 402, which is a tiny plane. It was us and one other passenger and the pilot. As we walked onto the tarmac to board I started to question what I’d signed us up for. There’s something about a huge plane that feels safer to me. All I could think was, is this the type of plane JFK Jr died in????? (Google search determined it was not.) But it was fine. It was a beautifully scenic flight that brought us to Augusta’s tiny airport. I’d reserved a compact car but all they could offer me was a Ford F150 pickup. Of course there was already snow on the ground.

Here I am, not worried about dying like JFK Jr and Carolyn Bessette at all.

We took the campus tour in 17 degree weather with snow blowing all around us, sat for an exciting admissions presentation (any other parent of a high school junior/senior knows this is a bold-faced lie), and then got a free lunch in the cafeteria. I will say that Byron is much more enthusiastic about University of Maine than I am. I’m not super excited about traveling back and forth to Maine but we’ll see what happens after all the applications go out. I think I’ll be sold if I see a moose while we’re here. There’s two other schools he’s considering that we won’t tour unless he’s accepted.

Here’s Byron already thinking about his move to Maine.

Figuring out this college thing is quite the adventure. As a homeschooler I’ve always had a much larger say over my children’s education than most parents. Now, I’m turning all that over to them to figure out on their own, to follow their own educational pursuits, and hoping that I did enough and didn’t put them at a disadvantage.

My one big piece of advice to other homeschool parents is that taking community college courses in high school has definitely helped us all. Me by outsourcing higher level courses, and the kids by exposing them to other teachers, acclimating them to a “college scene”, allowing them to choose courses related to their interests, and helping them save money down the road with transfer credits.

I’ll let you know how COLLEGE DECISION 2.0 goes in subsequent posts in which I also consider why a child of mine who wishes to pursue writing so adamantly dislikes my preferred genre of non-fiction. So much more self-reflection and second guessing to come!!

Teddy’s Surgery Journal, Part 3

Happy Black Friday! I’m not selling you anything!

I just wanted to give what’s probably going to be the last update on Teddy for awhile. Long story short- he’s doing really well, so all the progress now will just be slow and steady with hopefully no surprises. We’ll start where the last post left off and move forward to today.

Monday Evening

Teddy continued to do well Monday evening. He was a bit gaggy in the evening, and had a minuscule appetite (I think I at more of his hospital meals than he did) but kept down what he did eat and drink and his usual daily medications. He didn’t want pain meds overnight and was fine- phew! I finally took the time to research the antibiotic he was on and realized that the most common side effects matched all his GI symptoms and the strange itching. I was relieved to finally understand what was bothering him (and since the antibiotics were stopped after the drain was removed on Sunday, it explained why he was markedly improved on Monday.)


We were both up early and the surgeon was in to see us before breakfast. He checked the wound and changed the dressing on Teddy’s back and gave us the okay for discharge. We will need to keep the wound covered until our follow-up on December 22. If I remember correctly, Fulton had a different kind of dressing on his wound, plus nursing care, so I didn’t need to change anything. This is really the only different aspect to our discharge instructions from last time. We left late morning and although Tony and I were worreid about how Teddy would handle the drive home, he did great with minimal discomfort (vs Fulton who threw up from pain on the drive home after his surgery). In fact, Teddy stayed up in his chair for most of the day once we got home.

He definitely doesn’t seem to be in as much pain and discomfort as Fulton was at this point. I don’t think it’s because he has a higher tolerance, I genuinely think he’s in less pain. The hardest part is when he’s laying in bed and getting repositioned at night, getting dressed, or otherwise moved around. His chair seems to be the most comfortable place for him, which again is just so different from our experience with Fulton (who preferred the comfort of his bed).

The rest of the week.

Tuesday and Wednesday were filled with Thanksgiving preparation, the majority of which were completed by my mom. Tony and I only prepared a few pies and purchased some locally produced libations. We’ve received, and appreciated greatly!, meals from friends. Our freezer is still pretty well stocked. Fulton and Teddy were off school both weeks, and Edie was off all of this week.

Tony picked Addie up at the bus station Thursday morning at 8:30 a.m. It was a great Thanksgiving, in which I took zero photos. We ate tons of food, watched the Macy’s parade and football, and generally enjoyed being together as a family. I’m maintaining the lazy tempo through this weekend. We’re not driving Teddy anywhere for a bit yet, so we’re focused on family activities at homes for the remainder of Addie’s visit. We played Secret Hitler (my lone affiliate link) last night (highly recommended!), and today as I write this, everyone is on Minecraft…yelling loudly (for reasons unrelated to physical pain). I think we’ll do a bonfire at some point. So long as Teddy remains comfortable, and there’s no surprises (i.e. infection, wound re-opening, etc.) I hoping we can ease into Advent and December and get through this recovery without any problems.

Thank you (again) for all your prayers! Please continue to pray that there are no surprises, that his pain and discomfort (specifically in the evening and overnight) continue to lessen, and that his appetite and stomach discomfort improve too.

Teddy’s Surgery Journal, Part 2

I went into this whole thing with less anxiety and worry because, “I’ve been through this before with Fulton! I know what to expect!” And it’s true, I did know what to expect, up to the point where Teddy’s recovery diverged from Fulton’s. The last few days have been humbling for me as Teddy struggles in ways I didn’t anticipate.


The day started well enough (I even got a smile out of him!), and after morning pain meds, we got Teddy up into his wheelchair for the first time. He lasted for two and half hours before getting in bed and taking a long nap. But later in the day he started having GI issues that were making him really uncomfortable. By Friday night, he wasn’t eating anything, only taking small sips of his drinks, and gagging or throwing up. In addition, something he was on was making his face itchy, and I was constantly scratching his face. Despite everything, he slept well overnight.


It was a rough day. He was in a lot of pain around his abdomen; he didn’t even mention his back. He got up in his wheelchair again and barely lasted two hours. By late afternoon, I requested to get him back on IV fluids, since he hadn’t had much to eat or drink since dinner the day before. The doctor agreed and even as some GI issues resolved themselves, Teddy was nauseous and unable to eat or drink much. The doctor offers to give Teddy an anti-nausea drug but I know from the great stomach bug fest that was 2019, that Teddy doesn’t respond to that anti-nausea drug. After Teddy receives pain meds at 8 p.m., I head home and Tony takes over. It’s not a peaceful night. Since the 8 p.m. pain meds made him gag so much, Teddy refuses pain meds later in the night and is up a lot asking to be repositioned.


While I’m at home, Tony keeps me updated on Teddy’s condition. I learn that Teddy’s still not eating, not drinking much, and still gagging or throwing up. He also continues to refuse pain medicine. Teddy did get in his chair twice, and spent lots of time driving around the hospital. His drain was taken out, and the bandages on his back changed (which is pretty painful, and the only thing Fulton was sure to warn Teddy about). I arrived and after talking with Tony, we asked to have some pain medicines given to Teddy so he could hopefully sleep better. We opted for medicine with the smallest oral dose, and unfortunately, it still caused him to throw up.

As I write this, I have no idea if he will be discharged tomorrow; it seems unlikely. I packed clothes and snacks assuming I would still be here with him on Tuesday. I hope we can figure out why he feels the way he does. I will update this post when we have a game plan for the next 24-48 hours.

UPDATE: Monday, 4 p.m.

Teddy slept well from 8 p.m. until midnight. He seemed uncomfortable so I insisted on pain medication. He took it and kept it down without gagging, and slept well until 4 a.m. At that point he refused pain meds again, but thankfully he remained comfortable and fell back to sleep for a couple more hours. He was taken off IV fluids around 6 a.m. He’s been in better spirits today and even requested a big breakfast; I thought, “An answer to prayers!!” He only ate maybe a piece of bacon, and drank one cup of OJ, but he didn’t have any gagging or stomach pains afterwards. (He was not a fan of the hospital scrambled eggs and spit them out.) Teddy was up in his chair by 9 a.m. and stayed in until almost noon. He drove around, and enjoyed the Xbox in the teen lounge. We didn’t see the surgeon this morning. I don’t know if we missed him while we were in the lounge, but a nurse practitioner we chatted with mentioned taking off some bandages tomorrow, so I’m assuming we’re looking at a Tuesday discharge. He ordered a big lunch, but once again didn’t like the sandwich he chose and only ate some mashed potatoes. But he drank his entire Gatorade and it all stayed down with no discomfort. While I would like his appetite to increase, at least what he’s eating is finally staying down and not causing him pain. He’s been up driving in his chair more this afternoon, and got another round of x-rays. I can tell his back is bothering him, but he’s still refusing pain meds. I’m not going to insist on anything until bedtime because otherwise, he can’t sleep soundly (and neither do I).

Thank you for your prayers! Please keep them coming. Updated to add – I’ve seen a marked improvement since I published this post last night.

And thanks to everyone who has sent things. He has enjoyed having mail to open.